A little less than a year ago, I wrote about God slowing me down: “God is calling me to wait on Him. To be patient. To unlace my track shoes, slow my sprint to a saunter, stop looking for the next big thing, and simply wait.”
Apparently I wasn’t listening. There’s nothing like a good case of pneumonia to trap you in your bed and help you listen. Sometimes God speaks to us with a flashing neon sign, but more often, at least in my experience, He speaks one bulb at a time. A little lightbulb flickers to life in my mind, followed by another, and another, and another. And finally, with some discernment and a little guesswork, I get the message.
“WAIT.”
That’s His message to me. You wouldn’t think it would take an electrical engineer to connect those flashing lights. No, it just takes surrendering control of your plans and exercising patience. No sweat—unless you’re me. Then it comes with about 15 hours worth of sweat—and chills, and body aches, and nearly coughing up a lung. I’m not sure God “gives” people sickness, but I’m certain He allows it and uses it. He used it to bring to my mind Luke 16:10:
“If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones.”
My plate today is filled with lots of little things—not the least of which is a lot of little people. And certainly, next to my relationship with God, my children and my husband are the most important parts of my world. But I’m also pretty used to them, and my eyes have been fixed on the next big thing—something new and different—the ministry adventure we feel is ahead for our family. All those extra hours in bed, however, gave me time to evaluate how I’m doing in the little, familiar things, and “faithful” was not the best descriptor. Of course I’m faithful to my family, my friends, and my commitments in the strictest sense, but am I doing my best? Giving my all? Can I say I’ve been entirely faithful? No. Not by a long shot.
Whatever “large ones” God has in mind for me are on hold. No one’s clamoring to buy our house. The house we wanted sold to someone else. The volunteering I planned to do hasn’t come to fruition. My biggest writing project just got canceled. The flashing lights (not to mention the pneumonia) are telling me that God wants me to focus on the little things in my life—faithfully, whole-heartedly, and patiently—and to wait for everything else.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
The Bright Side of Pneumonia
As the final act to our Winter of Terrible Sickness, I got pneumonia over the weekend. Never had pneumonia in my life. Or a chest x-ray. Or a trip to the ER that didn’t involve a baby trying to get out. None of these were enjoyable firsts, but in the spirit of looking on the bright side, here are the few good things I’ve noticed about having pneumonia:
Food becomes a non-entity. In my real life, I go through my day either preparing food, cleaning up food, or wondering what food I can eat next. My highly contagious state means I’m not touching anyone else’s food, and I couldn’t care less about it myself. Chocolate sounds disgusting. I feel skinny. These are not bad things.
My dreams could win an Emmy. The narcotics I’ve been given don’t seem to do much for my cough, but they do give me the wildest dreams ever. I wake up feeling like I’ve spent the night riding at light speed through Space Mountain.
My mom swoops in and does 48-bajillion loads of laundry and plays nearly that many games of cards with my kids. She also doesn’t seem to care that she’s watched Free Willy 15, 16—17?—times.
At least it’s me and not Brooklyn. I’d throw myself in front of a train to keep that poor child from getting sick again.
Spring will be that much more glorious this year. I know I’ve got a good two months to go, but I’m just willing spring to my door. Everything’s better in the spring. Probably even pneumonia.
Food becomes a non-entity. In my real life, I go through my day either preparing food, cleaning up food, or wondering what food I can eat next. My highly contagious state means I’m not touching anyone else’s food, and I couldn’t care less about it myself. Chocolate sounds disgusting. I feel skinny. These are not bad things.
My dreams could win an Emmy. The narcotics I’ve been given don’t seem to do much for my cough, but they do give me the wildest dreams ever. I wake up feeling like I’ve spent the night riding at light speed through Space Mountain.
My mom swoops in and does 48-bajillion loads of laundry and plays nearly that many games of cards with my kids. She also doesn’t seem to care that she’s watched Free Willy 15, 16—17?—times.
At least it’s me and not Brooklyn. I’d throw myself in front of a train to keep that poor child from getting sick again.
Spring will be that much more glorious this year. I know I’ve got a good two months to go, but I’m just willing spring to my door. Everything’s better in the spring. Probably even pneumonia.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Lighter Fare: My Movie List
I’m feeling pretty cool because I actually saw the Academy Award–winning Best Picture this year. At a movie theater. Surrounded by grown-ups.
Kevin and I can’t even remember the last time we were alone in a movie theater together. A couple kids ago, maybe? I vaguely remember seeing Wall-E (literally slept through it) and Ratatouille (nursed a fussy baby through it). It’s a part of my life that I miss. Back in my childless days, I spent several years seeing every Best Picture–nominated movie before Oscar night. (That was back when I could stomach movies like Silence of the Lambs. I lost that ability somewhere around the time Fargo came out.) Oscar night itself was a big deal for me, too. I made fun snacks for myself and even got off work early back when it was on Monday nights. I’ve regretted never braving the traffic and crowds, when I lived in L.A., to stand among the masses along the red carpet on Oscar night. I must’ve thought I needed to study or something. Silly me.
This year, when Kevin and I lucked into a date night on Valentine’s weekend (thanks, Kendra), we ventured downtown to the hip independent theater that had previously served only to deeply disturb me (the aforementioned Fargo experience, as well as the three hours of inane torment that were the movie Magnolia). I needed a good experience at the Kimball's Theater—something beyond just the comfy reclining chairs—and got it with Slumdog Millionaire. It was a little darker than I was hoping for on my rare date night, but the story and child actors were captivating enough to help me forgive the theater for past emotional trauma.
This year’s winner won’t go down as one of my favorites of all time, but I recommend it—especially if you can get in for six bucks a head like we did. And in case you might be wondering what movies are on that short list of favorites, here it is:
1. Moulin Rouge (Rosie O’Donnell once said she keeps a copy in every room, in case of a fire. I get that. I have two myself.)
2. It’s a Wonderful Life (When, oh when, will my children be able to sit still long enough to watch this all the way through with me?)
3. The Shawshank Redemption
4. The Player (I guess I have a Tim Robbins thing.)
5. Dirty Dancing (Yes, I do know every word to “Hungry Eyes.” Feel free to judge me. I’m 38. I don’t care anymore.)
6. Singing in the Rain/Grease/Chicago/Hairspray (Make a musical, I’ll see it. Twice.)
7. From Justin to Kelly (Just kidding, but I am tempted to rent it every time I walk by it at Blockbuster.)
Runners-Up (Movies I thoroughly enjoyed but can't necessarily recommend or add to my favorites list): Dan in Real Life, Awakenings, Clueless, Juno, Ocean’s Eleven, Little Miss Sunshine, Notting Hill, The American President, American Dreamz, A Fish Called Wanda)
Kevin and I can’t even remember the last time we were alone in a movie theater together. A couple kids ago, maybe? I vaguely remember seeing Wall-E (literally slept through it) and Ratatouille (nursed a fussy baby through it). It’s a part of my life that I miss. Back in my childless days, I spent several years seeing every Best Picture–nominated movie before Oscar night. (That was back when I could stomach movies like Silence of the Lambs. I lost that ability somewhere around the time Fargo came out.) Oscar night itself was a big deal for me, too. I made fun snacks for myself and even got off work early back when it was on Monday nights. I’ve regretted never braving the traffic and crowds, when I lived in L.A., to stand among the masses along the red carpet on Oscar night. I must’ve thought I needed to study or something. Silly me.
This year, when Kevin and I lucked into a date night on Valentine’s weekend (thanks, Kendra), we ventured downtown to the hip independent theater that had previously served only to deeply disturb me (the aforementioned Fargo experience, as well as the three hours of inane torment that were the movie Magnolia). I needed a good experience at the Kimball's Theater—something beyond just the comfy reclining chairs—and got it with Slumdog Millionaire. It was a little darker than I was hoping for on my rare date night, but the story and child actors were captivating enough to help me forgive the theater for past emotional trauma.
This year’s winner won’t go down as one of my favorites of all time, but I recommend it—especially if you can get in for six bucks a head like we did. And in case you might be wondering what movies are on that short list of favorites, here it is:
1. Moulin Rouge (Rosie O’Donnell once said she keeps a copy in every room, in case of a fire. I get that. I have two myself.)
2. It’s a Wonderful Life (When, oh when, will my children be able to sit still long enough to watch this all the way through with me?)
3. The Shawshank Redemption
4. The Player (I guess I have a Tim Robbins thing.)
5. Dirty Dancing (Yes, I do know every word to “Hungry Eyes.” Feel free to judge me. I’m 38. I don’t care anymore.)
6. Singing in the Rain/Grease/Chicago/Hairspray (Make a musical, I’ll see it. Twice.)
7. From Justin to Kelly (Just kidding, but I am tempted to rent it every time I walk by it at Blockbuster.)
Runners-Up (Movies I thoroughly enjoyed but can't necessarily recommend or add to my favorites list): Dan in Real Life, Awakenings, Clueless, Juno, Ocean’s Eleven, Little Miss Sunshine, Notting Hill, The American President, American Dreamz, A Fish Called Wanda)
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Groaning for Home
One of these days, I’m going to write about something really chipper. Just not today. Today I’m going to write about my friends’ 13-year-old son who has terminal brain cancer. Yeah, not exactly chipper. Except that this family’s journey through cancer has been filled with such growth, such hope, such faith, that it’s impacted all of us who have been along for the ride.
Ian was diagnosed with cancer on Superbowl Sunday 2008. He endured intense chemotherapy for a year. By the time the Steelers eeked out their win over the Chargers last month, it looked like Ian was finally out of the woods. About that time, I signed a contract with NavPress to help Ian’s dad tell their story, a beautiful story called Don’t Waste the Pain, to be published early next year.
About a week after Ian was declared cancer-free, strange symptoms started appearing. At first the doctors attributed it to lingering chemo effects, but a test of his spinal fluid soon determined that the cancer was back—in his spine and brain. These parents of seven then got the most horrific words a parent can ever hear: “Four to eight weeks.”
I have watched these parents do what any of the rest of us would do—seek any treatment, try any experimental drug, apply for any clinical trial, plead for their son’s life, and try to make it as normal as possible. I’ve also watched them say things like this (from one of their CaringBridge entries): “We’ve taught each of our children how to make a respectful appeal to those in authority over them. That is, “I want you to know that I’ll submit to whatever you decide. But with your permission I’d like to present my case.” That’s the best way I can explain our posture before God right now.”
As I pray for Ian, sometimes I wonder if I’m trying to hold him back from paradise. Where he’s going—either in a few weeks or in 60 or 70 years—is the place we all want for our children and ourselves. What we’re really asking for is a delayed departure. Thirteen seems too young. Surely he needs more time on earth. That’s what our minds and our culture tell us, but God’s Word tells us this:
“We know that if the earthly tent we live in [our bodies] is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling” (2 Cor. 5:1–2).
I struggle to understand much of what Paul writes in the New Testament, and this passage is no different. But I think the gist is that on earth, our bodies moan and grown, deteriorate and die—sometimes even at the age of thirteen. That’s because we’re not made for this temporal home. We’re made for heaven, confident, as Paul goes on to write, that we would “prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord” (verse 8).
I pray for Ian’s healing. Every day. I pray we will be witnesses to a miracle, and I won’t be the least bit surprised if it happens. I pray that his family’s faith will not waver. But I also pray that if God’s answer is, “Come, my child,” that we will smile—even as we grieve—that this boy was chosen to go Home for good.
Ian was diagnosed with cancer on Superbowl Sunday 2008. He endured intense chemotherapy for a year. By the time the Steelers eeked out their win over the Chargers last month, it looked like Ian was finally out of the woods. About that time, I signed a contract with NavPress to help Ian’s dad tell their story, a beautiful story called Don’t Waste the Pain, to be published early next year.
About a week after Ian was declared cancer-free, strange symptoms started appearing. At first the doctors attributed it to lingering chemo effects, but a test of his spinal fluid soon determined that the cancer was back—in his spine and brain. These parents of seven then got the most horrific words a parent can ever hear: “Four to eight weeks.”
I have watched these parents do what any of the rest of us would do—seek any treatment, try any experimental drug, apply for any clinical trial, plead for their son’s life, and try to make it as normal as possible. I’ve also watched them say things like this (from one of their CaringBridge entries): “We’ve taught each of our children how to make a respectful appeal to those in authority over them. That is, “I want you to know that I’ll submit to whatever you decide. But with your permission I’d like to present my case.” That’s the best way I can explain our posture before God right now.”
As I pray for Ian, sometimes I wonder if I’m trying to hold him back from paradise. Where he’s going—either in a few weeks or in 60 or 70 years—is the place we all want for our children and ourselves. What we’re really asking for is a delayed departure. Thirteen seems too young. Surely he needs more time on earth. That’s what our minds and our culture tell us, but God’s Word tells us this:
“We know that if the earthly tent we live in [our bodies] is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling” (2 Cor. 5:1–2).
I struggle to understand much of what Paul writes in the New Testament, and this passage is no different. But I think the gist is that on earth, our bodies moan and grown, deteriorate and die—sometimes even at the age of thirteen. That’s because we’re not made for this temporal home. We’re made for heaven, confident, as Paul goes on to write, that we would “prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord” (verse 8).
I pray for Ian’s healing. Every day. I pray we will be witnesses to a miracle, and I won’t be the least bit surprised if it happens. I pray that his family’s faith will not waver. But I also pray that if God’s answer is, “Come, my child,” that we will smile—even as we grieve—that this boy was chosen to go Home for good.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Dreams and Altars
The house I’ve been dreaming of sold last Friday, and it wasn’t to us. Someone else will live across the street from the elementary school that has captured my heart. Maybe they’re the ones who will open their house up to hungry kids on Friday nights or provide a safe place for latchkey kids after school. But maybe not. Maybe they just liked the powder-blue bathroom and the metal cabinets in the kitchen.
Three weeks ago, this was so much more than a house to me. It was a dream. It was the answer to my family’s gnawing call to live among the poor. I envisioned throngs of kids running through that door. I imagined power trips to Sam’s to feed them all. I had the trampoline and the air hockey table set up in my mind; Kevin pictured basketball games in our oversized driveway. My mind had already renovated the apartment above the garage that would one day house a single mom and her kids. Or the Navigator college students who would spend their summer volunteering with Elevate at the school across the street. Hard to let go of these dreams.
But the house didn’t sell three weeks ago. It sold last week. It sold a few days after I listened to an audio message called “Death of a Dream.” The speaker was Phil Vischer, the outrageous genius who started VeggieTales, was on his way to becoming the next Walt Disney, and then watched it all crumble before his eyes. A few hours before I listened to the CD, I asked God to give me His perspective. We knew the house was under contract, and I was becoming neurotic at the thought of losing it. Later that day, as I went through the previous day’s mail, I saw a package of CDs mailed to me by a friend. Always curious about Phil Vischer’s story, I popped it in.
He said a lot of things, but this is what he said specifically to me: What’s more important to you? Loving God or loving your dream? Is it the dream you’re pursuing with all your heart, or is it your Creator? And no, it doesn’t matter if your dream involves following your God-given calling and doing all sorts of great things for Him. He doesn’t want or need your great things. He wants your heart, every bit of it, and He’s not willing to share it with your grand dreams.
Abraham had the grandest dream of all. It was more than a dream; it was actually a promise. From God Himself. God told Abraham he would have a son from whom nations would descend. Abraham surely assumed God had the wrong guy, because he didn’t have a single child. And he—and even more important, his wife—were about six decades past their child-bearing years. But God worked around that small detail and gave them a son named Isaac. And then, when Isaac was nearly grown, God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son, to literally kill his dreams with his own hands. We all know how the story ends. Abraham didn’t have to kill his son, but he had to be willing to. He had to put his dream on the altar and decide, “God, you’re more important to me than anything—even this boy and all he represents to me.”
What a relief that the only thing I had to lay on the altar was a not-at-all-beautiful house built in 1952. So I did. God answered my prayer for perspective quickly and unquestionably, and I got more focused on the one I love instead of on the plans I love.
The hardest part of losing the house is that I still have to park in front of it once a week when I volunteer at the school. I still have to leave all those kids to play alone on the icy sidewalk for an hour or more while they wait for someone to come pick them up. I have to accept that God’s answer for me today is, “No, not your assignment. Not now,” and I get in my car and drive away. But it’s not all bad having the altar right there in front of me. It reminds me of the one I’m waiting on, and His plans are well worth the wait.
Three weeks ago, this was so much more than a house to me. It was a dream. It was the answer to my family’s gnawing call to live among the poor. I envisioned throngs of kids running through that door. I imagined power trips to Sam’s to feed them all. I had the trampoline and the air hockey table set up in my mind; Kevin pictured basketball games in our oversized driveway. My mind had already renovated the apartment above the garage that would one day house a single mom and her kids. Or the Navigator college students who would spend their summer volunteering with Elevate at the school across the street. Hard to let go of these dreams.
But the house didn’t sell three weeks ago. It sold last week. It sold a few days after I listened to an audio message called “Death of a Dream.” The speaker was Phil Vischer, the outrageous genius who started VeggieTales, was on his way to becoming the next Walt Disney, and then watched it all crumble before his eyes. A few hours before I listened to the CD, I asked God to give me His perspective. We knew the house was under contract, and I was becoming neurotic at the thought of losing it. Later that day, as I went through the previous day’s mail, I saw a package of CDs mailed to me by a friend. Always curious about Phil Vischer’s story, I popped it in.
He said a lot of things, but this is what he said specifically to me: What’s more important to you? Loving God or loving your dream? Is it the dream you’re pursuing with all your heart, or is it your Creator? And no, it doesn’t matter if your dream involves following your God-given calling and doing all sorts of great things for Him. He doesn’t want or need your great things. He wants your heart, every bit of it, and He’s not willing to share it with your grand dreams.
Abraham had the grandest dream of all. It was more than a dream; it was actually a promise. From God Himself. God told Abraham he would have a son from whom nations would descend. Abraham surely assumed God had the wrong guy, because he didn’t have a single child. And he—and even more important, his wife—were about six decades past their child-bearing years. But God worked around that small detail and gave them a son named Isaac. And then, when Isaac was nearly grown, God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son, to literally kill his dreams with his own hands. We all know how the story ends. Abraham didn’t have to kill his son, but he had to be willing to. He had to put his dream on the altar and decide, “God, you’re more important to me than anything—even this boy and all he represents to me.”
What a relief that the only thing I had to lay on the altar was a not-at-all-beautiful house built in 1952. So I did. God answered my prayer for perspective quickly and unquestionably, and I got more focused on the one I love instead of on the plans I love.
The hardest part of losing the house is that I still have to park in front of it once a week when I volunteer at the school. I still have to leave all those kids to play alone on the icy sidewalk for an hour or more while they wait for someone to come pick them up. I have to accept that God’s answer for me today is, “No, not your assignment. Not now,” and I get in my car and drive away. But it’s not all bad having the altar right there in front of me. It reminds me of the one I’m waiting on, and His plans are well worth the wait.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Who's In Charge Here?
Last time I wrote about the myriad of things we don’t get to pick about our kids. But there’s a lot we do get to influence. I’ve been inspired and motivated recently by the parenting classes I attend. The directors of my daughter’s preschool, who lead the classes, have made it their personal crusade to remind parents that we’re in charge and that we hold the most power and influence over our kids—not their schools, their friends, the media, or any other part of our culture.
Parents of teenagers complain that their kids do nothing but text. Parents of 10-year-olds are concerned that all they want to do is play video games; they never go outside anymore. Parents of 4-year-olds show up at work exhausted after spending yet another night sharing their bed with a little squirmer who just won’t stay in her own bed. We’ve all been there, whether in these exact circumstances or something similar.
It’s easy to feel helpless in these circumstances, like a bystander watching their sweet children fall prey to bad habits. There’s a kind of momentary amnesia that strikes us all at one time or another. It makes us forget that we’re the grown-ups, that we worked hard to rise to that rank, and we’re in charge.
Every once in awhile we need a good jolt out of our passive acceptance of the direction our children seem to be heading. We need to realize our power to change their course. God has given parents authority over their children. (Of course that authority can be horribly abused, but that’s not what I’m talking about here. I mean the kind of healthy authority that is exercised by loving parents.) One of the most important jobs we parents have is to help our kids learn how to recognize and respond appropriately to the authority figures in their lives. While there may not be a whole lot we can do about a 1-year-old’s public tantrums (and I’ve experienced enough of these lately to wonder if Target will ban us from its stores nationwide), we don’t just have to lie down and accept the societal mantra that all middle-schoolers think their parents are idiots and all teenagers are rebellious and disrespectful. We can fight against that cultural tide. We can muster up the strength and energy and use all the power in our parental arsenals to point our children in the direction of doing good, giving respect, dying to selfishness. Who’s the one who bought the cell phone and pays for the minutes? Who’s the one who allowed the video games in the house to begin with? Who decided that it’s OK for preschoolers to get out of their beds? We have the power to take away everything we allow, even if it won’t be easy.
One recommendation from parent time was that the first time—the first time!—we see the roll of our children’s eyes directed toward us, we respond with a severe consequence. We’re tempted to argue, “Hey, that’s only a 2 or 3 on the scale of offenses,” but they advised us to respond with a 9 or 10 consequence. Helping our children recognize disrespectful behavior—and the consequences that it brings—is one of our hardest jobs. Kind, respectful, mature behavior doesn't come naturally; it has to be taught. It also has to be modeled—even when we're tired, overwhelmed, distracted (which pretty much summarizes my general state).
Parents of teenagers complain that their kids do nothing but text. Parents of 10-year-olds are concerned that all they want to do is play video games; they never go outside anymore. Parents of 4-year-olds show up at work exhausted after spending yet another night sharing their bed with a little squirmer who just won’t stay in her own bed. We’ve all been there, whether in these exact circumstances or something similar.
It’s easy to feel helpless in these circumstances, like a bystander watching their sweet children fall prey to bad habits. There’s a kind of momentary amnesia that strikes us all at one time or another. It makes us forget that we’re the grown-ups, that we worked hard to rise to that rank, and we’re in charge.
Every once in awhile we need a good jolt out of our passive acceptance of the direction our children seem to be heading. We need to realize our power to change their course. God has given parents authority over their children. (Of course that authority can be horribly abused, but that’s not what I’m talking about here. I mean the kind of healthy authority that is exercised by loving parents.) One of the most important jobs we parents have is to help our kids learn how to recognize and respond appropriately to the authority figures in their lives. While there may not be a whole lot we can do about a 1-year-old’s public tantrums (and I’ve experienced enough of these lately to wonder if Target will ban us from its stores nationwide), we don’t just have to lie down and accept the societal mantra that all middle-schoolers think their parents are idiots and all teenagers are rebellious and disrespectful. We can fight against that cultural tide. We can muster up the strength and energy and use all the power in our parental arsenals to point our children in the direction of doing good, giving respect, dying to selfishness. Who’s the one who bought the cell phone and pays for the minutes? Who’s the one who allowed the video games in the house to begin with? Who decided that it’s OK for preschoolers to get out of their beds? We have the power to take away everything we allow, even if it won’t be easy.
One recommendation from parent time was that the first time—the first time!—we see the roll of our children’s eyes directed toward us, we respond with a severe consequence. We’re tempted to argue, “Hey, that’s only a 2 or 3 on the scale of offenses,” but they advised us to respond with a 9 or 10 consequence. Helping our children recognize disrespectful behavior—and the consequences that it brings—is one of our hardest jobs. Kind, respectful, mature behavior doesn't come naturally; it has to be taught. It also has to be modeled—even when we're tired, overwhelmed, distracted (which pretty much summarizes my general state).
I am humbled daily by the magnitude of doing this job well, and amused that God thinks I’m up to the task.
Monday, February 2, 2009
You Can Pick Your Nose, But Not Your Kids
Shortly after actor Matthew McConaughey’s son was born, he told People magazine that he couldn’t wait to teach his boy how to surf so they could be shirtless surfer dudes together. Or something to that effect. People also quoted actress Kate Hudson’s response to this. With a handful of parenting years already behind her, Kate said something like, “Yeah, that’s what he thinks. His son will probably grow up to be a preppy chess player.”
Her comment got a chuckle and a big nod out of me. We get to pick our kids’ names, their haircuts and clothes (for a little while), and sometimes, like me, even their birthdays. But we don’t get to pick much of anything else.
A dear friend of mine just had a baby last week, and she didn’t get to pick much about the way he entered the world or the first 48 hours of his life. Pretty much nothing went the way she would have chosen. I watch my husband try to talk our son into playing ball in the yard, but he’s rarely interested. Regardless of what we envisioned for him, we don’t get to pick his interests. We don’t get to decide that he likes footballs and basketballs more than bullwhips and cap guns. He gets to pick.
I don’t think I would’ve picked four c-sections or to have three teenage girls the year I turn 50. (Yeah, I’m gonna need a big party that year.) I probably wouldn’t pick sensitive children who cry for no apparent reason or fanatical rule-followers who won’t even sneak a pack of fruit snacks into a gym that says “No food allowed.”
But when I think about it, they may not have picked a mom who snarls at the thought of Play-Doh or homemade necklaces. They may not have picked to live in a cluttery house where occasionally their mom can't even unearth the phone. And what if MY parents had been able to pick out all the finer details of my life? I’d be an arthritic 300-pound lineman right now. My father probably shook his head more times than I know at the 13-year-old female creature who spent way too much time fussing with her hair and reading V.C. Andrews books.
I’ve gotta think this is all for the best. If we really got to pick our children’s personalities and interests, wouldn’t we all just be raising much-improved clones of ourselves? How boring would that be? I’d be missing out on pipecleaner art and nonstop tiger trivia—not to mention bullwhips and cap guns.
So, uh, good luck with that surfing thing, Matthew McConaughey. Better brush up on your chess game just in case.
Her comment got a chuckle and a big nod out of me. We get to pick our kids’ names, their haircuts and clothes (for a little while), and sometimes, like me, even their birthdays. But we don’t get to pick much of anything else.
A dear friend of mine just had a baby last week, and she didn’t get to pick much about the way he entered the world or the first 48 hours of his life. Pretty much nothing went the way she would have chosen. I watch my husband try to talk our son into playing ball in the yard, but he’s rarely interested. Regardless of what we envisioned for him, we don’t get to pick his interests. We don’t get to decide that he likes footballs and basketballs more than bullwhips and cap guns. He gets to pick.
I don’t think I would’ve picked four c-sections or to have three teenage girls the year I turn 50. (Yeah, I’m gonna need a big party that year.) I probably wouldn’t pick sensitive children who cry for no apparent reason or fanatical rule-followers who won’t even sneak a pack of fruit snacks into a gym that says “No food allowed.”
But when I think about it, they may not have picked a mom who snarls at the thought of Play-Doh or homemade necklaces. They may not have picked to live in a cluttery house where occasionally their mom can't even unearth the phone. And what if MY parents had been able to pick out all the finer details of my life? I’d be an arthritic 300-pound lineman right now. My father probably shook his head more times than I know at the 13-year-old female creature who spent way too much time fussing with her hair and reading V.C. Andrews books.
I’ve gotta think this is all for the best. If we really got to pick our children’s personalities and interests, wouldn’t we all just be raising much-improved clones of ourselves? How boring would that be? I’d be missing out on pipecleaner art and nonstop tiger trivia—not to mention bullwhips and cap guns.
So, uh, good luck with that surfing thing, Matthew McConaughey. Better brush up on your chess game just in case.
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